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Pointless ramblings of a teacher  ah... .the loving warmth of Christmas... fixing a five thousand dollar computer networking system two times cause your idiot sister doesn't understand the words DO NOT TOUCH.... spending about four hundred dollars on everyone you know (and several furs you don't as donations) realizing each morning that your just one more day older and still unemployed.... still single.... still alone.... still living somewhere you hate.... still over 100K in debt technically... And all you really have to show for it is a 100,000 dollar piece of paper under glass.... that currently does nothing. It's a slice your wrists, throw a toaster in the tub, start up the car and insert some hose kinda Christmas. Current mood:  bitchy.
3 Signs your teaching at the wrong school 1. The armed guards and security personnel at the checkpoint kind of smirk at you and mutter the term "fresh meat" as you arrive 2. Your "students" are housed in a solid steel caged off area in the morning... after being checked for shivs/weaponry via full strip search. 3. During a fire drill the "normal" students from the school next door are herded away from your charges like they were plague ridden corpses festering in the noon day sun..... oh and the security guards have to escort you out of the room for the fire drill and then walk the teachers back before checking each student for more weapons So all in all a fun day really...... Current mood:  amused.
seeeeeeeeerioously considering shutting this journal down lately... Mostly because I have doubts that anyone still even reads it for some reason o_0 perhaps it's just the lack of response to my last post.... albeit I did talk to Cathy on the phone over it.... I guess I just thought it would surprise or worry folks *shrugs* anyways... update for anyone lurking..... turns out it wasn't a heart attack.... moronic doctor read the stats and declared it that without asking the right questions.... I went on webMD and entered my symptoms.... including what I had told him about the severe stomach pains and the hardening of the skin and muscles around my stomach..... turns out it was massive acid build up in my stomach (Esphogenitis apparently) The website recommended antacids and tums.... I thought hell that's like.... 30 bucks for a dosage box.... why not try it.... I've lost about thirty pounds and a shirt size in the last week.... along with feeling MASSIVE relief.... No clue how long this problems been going on... Current mood: amused.
Well I have not posted to this thing in a while so I guess I really should do something in it.... Basically the only real piece of news I have is that I had a "mild cardiac infarction" or in other words a stress induced mini heart attack/stutter. No damage really other then a hugely elevated blood pressure and feeling like I would explode for a few days. Other then that I haven't been doing much of anything.... I haven't picked up my brushes in days... just been trying to stay alive. Current mood:  calm.
mmmm it pours apparently... Turns out Tisa found someone new this weekend... ending a relationship i harbored for three years.... It ended better then any of my others however in that we're still friends... *sighs and shrugs a little* and at least I didn't break her heart. Current mood:  depressed.
Mexocan food has to be the worst taste I have ever experienced in reverse..... *curls up in a corner somewhere* Really not feeling well at all... Most of it has to do with stress... I have a three week thematic unit lesson plan due next week (covering three subjects since my partner completely left me hanging) and this coupled with my fathers wonderful announcement of a 900 dollar dental bill (which I will undoubtedly have to foot for a time till my mother can pay me back...) has left me rather stressed out lately... not to mention the wonderful relationship crapfest my life is... and my usual problems with no job... or good prospects... or health insurance... ect. plus it dosn;t help that I was reading a book and it kind of freaked me out... more my own imagination filling in blanks in the plotline then anything the author wrote. mmm really don't understand my life anymore... applied for my fiftieth or so education job today... probably won;t get it... The eighth or ninth person told me today that while they enjoy my company and love my writing and would like to "roleplay" things with me... that I'm just not what they would ever consider datable... or in this case "relationship material" I find it harder and harder to drag myself out of bed lately... I just want to bury myself somewhere nice dark and quiet... I wonder what the rent on a mausoleum would be... Seriously thinking of moving my "decorative" knife form above my pc.... I find my eyes drawn to it unconsciously these days for the first time in years. Current mood: depressed.Current music: Parade- Chaba. Well... I just had probably one of the worst days of my life.... which is astounding considering it only lasted about... seven hours before I completely shut down... ( My Father decided on a whim to go out and buy an MP3 player today.... ) Anyways.... now I feel like I have literally had the shit beaten out of me... I'm exhausted... and that's after going back to bed at 7 P.M. and sleeping like I was dead for eight hours. Both of my legs are bruised from clenching my body so tightly in response to his constant yells and complaints... My heads still pounding... and I have to meet my partner for this stupid cross curriculum assignment in six hours or so.... I really feel like just dropping the class since I don;t need it for anything and I only took it to get my loan/pay my insurance with said loan... but I am just.... reluctant to waist 900 dollars of tuition. (One class.... in case you didn't know Graduate studies sucks...) Current mood: beaten abused and in pain.
I did some looking through my Chaos marines and formed a rough army list for the ard boys tournament. The possessed unit can be split into two units of six if needed. ( list behind the cut ) Also on a more cute note.... bitty posed for a very regal series of pictures. ( The empress Bitty ) Current mood: content.
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